The strangest thing about my life the way it is now is looking back on the way it used to be, the person I was and what my expectations of my own life were. I remember, way too clearly, daydreaming about what college life would be like. I half expected it to be a party scene all the time and I half expected it to be completely based on school, grades and me always studying or doing home-work. I think those are the two most common ways people view college. Now that I’m actually living the “college-life” I realize that it’s more about you, the individual and the life you want rather than what college is about. I’ve realized that college can be whatever you want it to be, it’s all about personal choice. That’s a term that has become such a huge part of my vocabulary these past few months. “Personal Choice” because in reality, everything you do truly is personal choice.
Another thing that I’ve always been more than aware of but has never truly mattered more than it has these past few months while I’ve been attempting to figure out my life as a college freshman is the importance of priorities. Sure they were important in high school, but not nearly as much. The college life really did take me by surprise with just how much in control I am of my own life, the people and things in it, and the outcomes of the decisions I choose to make.
I often need to remind myself that while the college experience is important to me, complete with my friends, adventures and insane Friday nights, so is school. School is the reason I am here, and keeping that in mind is the only way I will keep being here, continuing to live this adventure that is currently my life. I need to keep in mind, that I have an end goal and a future I desperately want and that none of that will be plausible if I don’t keep doing what I’ve been doing.
Overall, I think I’ve been doing a pretty good job of keeping balanced. I do have my bad days/weeks where I can’t seem to keep myself in check and lose sight of the big picture, but I’ve been doing well in school, and had quite a few insane adventures all the same.
It’s been a crazy adventure these past few months, with the ups and downs, but it sure hasn’t slowed down. The last time I blogged I think it’s safe to say I was not in a good place, but I learned how to turn a bad situation good by branching out, meeting new people, opening myself up and I can say that everything that has happened since then has made me so much happier than I was. I’m finally content in who I am as a person and I think that’s the most important and significant thing that could have happened to me this year.
It has been a while since that last blog, but like I said, it has been a time period of ups and downs and I’m finally in a good place again and I plan on staying at this place for a long time, because I like who I am right now and I love the path that my life is going on. I apologize for my rambling on this post. I promise to blog far more frequently and with real adventures of my life as a college student.
Until then, to everyone who reads this, I hope you’re doing well and have a great night.